Monday, September 2, 2013

Psalm 139

For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.

                                     Psalm 139:13-16 

These words for me were words of comfort, hope, and trust that no matter what happened to our baby girl starting in the 23rd week of my pregnancy. She was following God's plan for her and, while extremely painful to think of losing her, we were trusting God with whatever that may be knowing His plan is perfect. I now rejoice that 9.5 weeks later she is still alive and growing, however this weekend these words took on further meaning for me and my family. 

My sweet grandmother was suddenly admitted to the ICU on Friday night and was given very little chance to make it more than 24 hours. 2 days later she has made it through emergency surgery and is still alive, but still has a long road ahead of her. She is so excited about this baby girl and being a great-grandmaw. She was thrilled that this little one was going to be a girl as "we don't have many in the family!". Just this past Tuesday she told me, "I just need to make it till this little girl is born". At the time I thought that was kind of silly because she was doing really well and we had no reason to think circumstances could change so quickly. 

While I am deeply saddened by her current status, and thankful for the miracle that she actually made it through surgery, I am comforted once again by Psalm 139. If she doesn't get her wish of meeting this little lady, and if she is suddenly taken from us in the next few hours, days or even weeks, I still know she has lived out her ordained days by God. Amen. 

She has a fighting spirit and we will continue to pray for success. Also pray for my stress levels and our baby girl {as stress is known to induce labor}. We know Grandmaw would not be happy if she came now because we are worried about her health. Grandmaw - you and I both hold on and we will have that meeting with your great-granddaughter next month.

Here's some pictures from the night we told her about our little baby. I remember her exclaiming, "I want to pin it to my shirt" {referring to the ultrasound photo...she loves wearing broaches and pins...}. 

1 comment :

  1. Such a loving tribute to Grandmaw. You are secure in knowing the depth of her love for little lady. All of you ladies are in our prayers... Sofamamasmom


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